I went to matha tek yesterday for the first time in what feels like forever, but has been somewhere between 8 months and a year. I had a pang of pain at not being able to attend Sunday kirtan Darbars and get to sing in the sangat, in the presence of Guru Granth Sahib Ji, to be able to experience Rainshbhais, and Vaisakhi.
While I was on my way, I remembered this shabad all of a sudden, as above. "To ask for any other than You, Lord, is the most miserable of miseries. Please bless me with your Naam and make me content, may the hunger of my mind be satisfied. The Guru has made the woods and meadows green again, O Nanak, is it any wonder that He blesses human beings as well?" I think it reads easier actually in the original Gurmukhi than in English, but it grasps the concept that when we do our Ardas we should be asking for Naam. Anything else we ask for ends up being a dukh in the end because it is an ask in the world of maya and maya gives us dukh, but if we have Naam, we have everything. I talked to a Gurmukh recently who reminded me that no matter what, if we walk and continue to walk then everything we do is in the direction of receiving that Naam. It might not feel like it and we might wonder about it, but everything all put together is actually meant by God to guide us in that direction. When we wonder why this happened to me, she told me we are asking that in ego, as if we know better than God for ourselves but she reminded me of this shabad in Asa: "If a beggar cries out at the door, the Master hears it in His Mansion. Whether He receives him or pushes him away, it is the Gift of the Lord's greatness." She reminded me that in both circumstances, we were touched by God, it doesn't matter if we are allowed in or pushed away in this metaphor. It is on Ang 349.
As the world is burning in Kaljug, we have to remember the words of our Guru's shabad to carry us forth to a direction.
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